I received my Creative Writing diploma in the mail the other day. And, while there were no caps and gowns, no giant out of control frat parties, I didn’t need those things. What I had was even better, and it was what I needed.
There was a connecting of the circle that I started drawing when I first sent away for the information on Winghill Writing School. It was a spontaneous act. A follow my bliss moment. A “what the heck do I have to lose by asking?” moment, and I thought it is probably too expensive (It wasn’t!), or the time commitment would be too much with a new baby to take care of (it was flexible—thank God!). This was my destiny and Destiny cannot be denied. It is true: Where there is a will, there is a way.
After just wrapping up a one-year maternity leave, I wasn’t back at work yet, didn’t want to leave my gorgeous little Emilio. I did not have money saved up for school, did not know how I would do this. Little did I know, I already had all that I needed. I had a husband who believed in me enough to say, “Go for it, Mami. We will find a way.” I had two older sons who said, “Do it, Mom. You’re going to do great!” And my oldest, who also said, “Here, Mom, I am working now and making good money; let me help you pay for this.” And they all said, “I love you. You can do this.” I had 289 pages of a raw novel manuscript, I had a baby that I wanted to be with, I had belief, I had a dream. That was enough.
So, without an income of my own, and without the knowledge of exactly how this was going to work, I ventured out, believing in my dream, in myself, and in those that believed in me. After all, I could feel it. This was my lifelong dream. This was supposed to be. This would be. I was born to do this. My amazing, always-supportive mother tells me I was talking in relevant, conversational sentences at one and a half (and apparently, I have never stopped talking). I was addicted to books from the first page, and by grade three, I tested with a vocabulary of someone who had been in grade 12 for three months. I was born with a passion for words and all that they can accomplish. My wonderful father is an avid reader and always taught me that if you can read, you can learn anything. He was right. He may have had to drop out of school in grade nine so he could work and help his family, but he is one of the smartest men I know.
So when my course materials arrived, I dove in, headfirst. So excited! I “met” my tutor, the talented and supportive Joan Hall Hovey. I met my future—with gratitude, happiness and humility. I admitted that I had the dream but didn’t know how to make it come true. But that was okay, because the wonderful folks at Winghill did, and they would teach me.
I started on the journey in the Creative Writing course. It covered everything. My first real assignment was to write an article for a magazine and pick one that I would submit it to. So I did. I built it, and yes, they came. I received my feedback from Joan, did some rewrites and boom! I submitted it to Calgary’s Child Magazine. And then, I waited. Oh my God, I waited. Officially the hardest part of being a writer! But it was worth it. They liked my article and but wanted to consider it for the March/April issue rather than the January/February issue.
That’s okay, I told myself. I can wait a few extra months to see my name in print. And then, I got a crazy sense of recklessness and bravado. No, I couldn’t wait, I decided. I would get published in the first issue of 2010. Yes, I could do this. So I wrote back and thanked them for showing interest in my article, and oh, by the way, I had an article that might be more appropriate for the January/February issue and did they want to see it? Yes, they did. Please forward that.
Only…I didn’t. And the deadline was in a few days. So I sat down with nothing more than a word processor, an idea, and a belief in my dreams.
One thousand words later, “Valentine’s Dinner for Two…Plus Kids” was born.
Approximately one month after that, I received the email that said they were publishing my article in the first issue of 2010. And my husband? Well, he received a wife running down the hallway, screaming, and then banging on the door (he was in the shower at the time, but I just couldn’t wait.) “I’m getting published! I’m getting published! I’m getting published! Papi! Papi! Papi! I’m getting published!”
After he recovered from having the Dominican equivalent of the “bejesus” scared out of him, when I hammered on the door unexpectedly, we celebrated my success and the validation that what I was doing was indeed right.
Afterwards, when I told my tutor what I had done when I went out on a limb and said I had another article written, she basically told me (in some more eloquent words I’m sure) that it took cojones to do what I did. Oh, and congratulations, by the way.
That was the beginning of Lisa Ink. And thus, two years and three months later, I have my diploma. It took awhile to accomplish, because ever since then, I have been very busy with writing related activity. I have been published many times; I am awaiting publication of the first fiction piece I ever submitted, Dragonfly Landing; I am an extremely busy and successful editor; oh, and that novel, it is almost finished, too. And I have started writing three more.
So, I could have just as easily let the course slip through the cracks of life, since I am already living my dream, but the symbolism in it, the actual finishing of it represents all of that and MORE to me. I did it.
I am writer, hear me roar! And groan, shout, say with emphasis, and sometimes expletives. Because that is what we do. We also stay up until the wee hours of the morning because we have a deadline. We network with like-minded people who are also up at o’boy-am-I-going-to-need-coffee-in-the-morning A.M. We work in our pajamas; we delete, delete, delete; and we always wait, and yes, it is always hard. But when we hear those words, “We want to publish you,” we run down the hallway screaming.
So the message is this: if you find what you love, that thing you were born to do, and you do it—just one step at a time—you will reach your goals, and yes, bliss will follow. Because if we love life, life loves us back.
Or as my son said the other day, “See, Mom. I knew you were a good investment.”
Invest in your dreams. You’re worth it.